Man, started out last week all fired up in regards to covering the Los Angeles Korean Film Festival and interviewing Chan Wook Park but the added responsibilities of classes and finding a job (desperately) as well as being burdened with helping out with the new house (and yes it is a burden because I, to be honest, wanted to already be moved out far before they moved up here and am anything but loving being up here) is just wearing me down. Really wearing me down. I should have long been gone from here and yet I'm at the very exact opposite of the spectrum with only a possibility of a job, 5 bucks to my name, and nothing much else. It's dire straights alright but I just gotta keep going. And I tell ya it's a very difficult prospect doing exactly that.
I know people all around the world are facing tougher circumstances and to imagine being in their shoes is quite difficult but you know, sometimes when the heat turns up a good deal you still get burned no matter what. That's about where I'm at right now and boy I'm sick of it. I'm not without hope but I'm certainly at a point of seemingly perpetual awareness of how down in the dumps I am and there's only so long I can put up with it without rising my ire.
It's funny though how you can look back and see each thing you should have done differently and I can certainly see 2 or 3...dozen of 'em. And it's funny how we have to live with that no matter.
Heh....I started on this post some 4 hours ago (got distracted) and I am feeling a bit better now but all the same I'll be thankful the moment I get a check from a regular job. Oh and with everything else that is funny, so's life. C'est la vie... Carpe Diem... I have ten toes....it's all the same...





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